Storytime: What Remains

Storytime: What Remains

Cliff could hear them searching. The snuffling, growling of the creatures filled his ears; first coming closer, then moving away for a bit before coming near again. He prayed they wouldn’t see him, wouldn’t smell him hiding beneath the pile of mangled, dead bodies that he had wriggled into in desperation.

All he could smell was the putrefying scent of the bodies, baking under the hot sun, and all he could see when he cared to open his eyes was the ripped limbs, bloody torsos and, for one horrific instant, the staring, screaming face of his nephew before the pile shifted under its weight and blocked the poor child’s dead gaze.

Cliff heard claws scraping on the ground and the pile of bodies he hid under shuddered for a moment as one of the creatures grabbed a body from the top of the pile and tore it apart with a sickening, wet tearing noise followed by the gnashing of teeth. There was a slurping noise, akin to someone inhaling a long, saucy piece of spaghetti and then the pile shuddered once more as the remains of the body was tossed back on it. The man trapped inside the pile breathed a soft sigh of relief, grateful he had decided to burrow as far into the morbid pile as he could.

As the day wore on, the noises from the creatures became less frequent and further away until, finally, they had ceased all together. He still waited long after the creatures were silent, just in case one had decided to stick around the village. Eventually, the growing stench of the bodies forced Cliff to wriggle free, doing his best not to notice the severed limbs or the smashed faces of the bodies he moved over and under.

It felt like ages, but shortly after he started moving, the man’s head emerged from the body pile and he sucked in clean air for the first time since morning. He dragged himself the rest of the way free and stood slowly on shaking legs to look around him. He immediately regretted the decision, as his stomach forced its way up to his throat and he threw up bile on the ground in front of him.

He stood there for a long minute, hands on bloody legs as he breathed in slowly, trying to calm his stomach to the point that he could look around again. Finally, he looked around again, steeling himself for the gruesome sights.

All around the village was evidence of the attack. The body pile he had emerged from was by far the largest, but smaller piles could be seen up and down the street. Directly across from him was the grocer’s shop, usually a lively store operated by a plump, smiling woman whose husband had passed on many years before. Her heart would break if she saw the state her shop was in now, blood splattered on the whitewashed sign and the door hanging from a single hinge. The front window had been smashed when the woman had been flung through it like a rag doll, her blood drying on the sharp edges. Her body was no where to be seen now, but he had seen one of the creatures tear her head off after she had been flung from the window, and her screams as they did so still echoed in his mind. It was not something he was likely to forget anytime soon.

Beside the grocer, behind cast iron fences that were bent and twisted out of shape, was the schoolhouse. He shuddered, not wanting to look at the carnage in the schoolyard, but his eyes seemed to have a mind of their own. The front steps were painted with blood and a small torso with half a leg and no arms or head was propped up at the top, like some macabre mascot. In the playground, he could see another body, this one smashed face first into the ground, nearly completely flattened. One of the arms had been completely stripped of flesh and the other reached towards the man as though begging for help.

Beyond that squashed body, another small form was draped over the cast-iron fencing, one of the pointed embellishments bursting through the child’s chest. The eyes had been plucked from the child’s face, leaving the poor form to stare sightlessly at the schoolyard.

Unable to look at the small, torn bodies any longer, Cliff turned away from the school and walked carefully down the street, watching his feet so that he did not slip in one of the congealing pools of blood that dotted the street like the puddles after a rainfall. On occasion he had to step over a torn limb or around a broken body. Slowly, steadily, he made his way to his home. He had been almost at the grocer’s when the attack started, and although he suspected what he would find, he still needed to see if his wife and children were alright. He didn’t bother to stop at his sister’s home on the way, he already knew what had happened to her son and her – he had just waved goodbye to them at the school when one of the creatures had bounded out of an alley and torn the small boy from her arms. His sister had screamed and tried to get the boy back, reaching for the small, struggling form. The only reward for her efforts had been the boy being flung so hard his back broke upon impact and gnashing teeth closing around her throat. Cliff squeezed his eyes shut, trying to block out the image but that only made it worse.

He trudged past his sister’s home, whispering a silent prayer to her and her son before moving towards his own home. He silently prayed that his wife would be safely hidden away in their cellar, the two young children with her, but his heart knew what he would find.

As he approached his home, he could see a waft of smoke coming from the kitchen window – probably from the children’s breakfast, still burning on the stove, Cliff mused, trying to keep his mind off what he would find.

The first signs that the creatures had been at his home was the front door lying inside the front hall and one of the porch steps was spilt down the middle. The next sign was the blood in the kitchen.

Bright red blood, slowly drying to a dirty brown, was splattered over the normally pristine kitchen, “Jenna is going to be so mad when she sees this.” Cliff thought to himself, knowing how his wife liked to keep the kitchen spotless. As he had anticipated, the stove held the burnt remains of scrambled eggs and at the table were three places set, a glass of orange juice sitting by each plate.

Aside from the splattered blood and burnt food, there was no sign in the kitchen that the creatures had been there.

Cliff walked slowly from the kitchen into the living room to find what he had been dreading.

Jenna had clearly tried to protect the children and had died with a fire poker in her hands. Her throat had been ripped away and she lay in a pool of her congealing blood, blond hair stained red. The creatures hadn’t touched her after she had died, and had turned their attention to the two small children that she had been protecting.

Of the children’s bodies there was no sign, but he found a bloody sock that had belonged to their youngest.

Cliff sank to the ground, heedless that he was kneeling in his dead wife’s blood, and clutched the sticky sock like he would die if he ever let go. The tears streamed freely down his face and his body wracked with silent sobs. He could have gotten through this, if only they had survived. He could have been strong for his family.

As he knelt there, sobbing silently into the sock, he heard a small noise from the nearby linen closest, a muffled, choked sob. Cliff froze, not quite believing what he’d heard. but then the muffled sob came again.

Moving faster than he thought possible, Cliff scrambled to the linen closet and pulled open the door, half fearing what he would find.

There, nestled on one of the quilts on the floor was his son, his eldest. The boy was traumatized, curled in a ball and sobbing quietly to himself. He flinched when the light fell on him, but otherwise didn’t look up or react to his father.

“Oh, Dawson, oh no” Cliff reached out and gathered the young boy in his arms, pressing the child’s head to his shoulder as he left the bloody living room and made his way to the relative safety of the basement where they had a hideaway nest that, had there been warning of the attack, the whole family would have fit into.
As it was, the cubby was spacious for Cliff and Dawson, though the young boy hardly registered where they were.

Cliff sat there, looking down at his exhausted son, knowing that now he could rebuild. Now he could keep going. Tomorrow he would look around town better, see if anyone else had survived, and then they would rebuild. Maybe not here, but somewhere.

The creatures weren’t going to win, not this time.

Storytime: The Shattered Necklace Part 2

Storytime: The Shattered Necklace Part 2

Catch up with Part One here!

Jorge and Gabriella made their way through the darkening forest to the camp of the Free People, to deliver the bad news about the necklace. Gabriella’s mind was racing furiously, trying to think of a weakness in the demons, something they could exploit in order to win this horrific war. Jorge walked in sullen silence, still numb from the loss of the necklace and all that it implied.

Night had fallen and the pair was navigating by starlight by the time they approached the camp of the Free People. As they neared, they heard the bird calls in the trees that meant their approach had been noted and they were friendly. Gabriella relaxed slightly at hearing the calls, not realizing until then that she had somehow convinced herself that with the shattering of the necklace, the Free People had shattered, too. Foolish, but she couldn’t help herself.

Once they reached the small collection of huts and treehouses nestled into the deepest part oft he forest, the pair quickly strode towards the home of their leader. As much as anyone was a leader of the Free People.

“Britt!” Gabriella claled out as she pushed open the door, Jorge on her heels. “Britt, you in here? We have some bad news…”

The leader of the Free People stepped out of one of the chambers, adjusting the weapons belt around her waist, “Bad news?” She sighed, brushing back raven-black hair and twisting it into a knot, “Alright, lay it on me. What’s happened now?”

Gabriella sighed and pulled the gem from her pocket, the only remaining piece of the shattered necklace, “It just shattered, Britt. We didn’t even get out far enough to use it for the barrier.” She handed the dull gem to Britt, who narrowed her green eyes at it, as though her glare could reverse the damage.

Finally Britt sighed and dropped the gem into her own pocket, “Thanks for bringing the gem back. I had really hoped.. It would have been so easy, just get the barrier up and be hidden from them.”

Gabriella and Jorge nodded glumly in response.

Britt waved her hand dismissively at the two, “It wasn’t your fault, alright? We knew this was a long shot, but we had to try. The necklace was just too weak to hold the magic that we needed. We will find another way.” She paused, “Go check in with Tyler, he is putting together a hunt and was looking for a couple of extra bows. It might do you some good to get out and not be brooding on what happened.” The two nodded and turned to go, “Oh, and Gabriella? Be careful. I can handle losing a necklace, I can’t handle losing my sister.”

Gabriella smiled broadly and threw her arms around her sister, “Thank you, Britt. We’ll see you soon, alright?”

“Of course. Now go get us some meat!”

Gabriella wiped at the tears forming in her eyes and then darted out of the hut to join Tyler on the hunt.

Back in the hut, Britt pulled the gem out of her pocket and looked at it for a long time. She hadn’t been lying to Gabriella, they had all known it was a long shot, but so many of their hopes had been tied up in that little necklace. To know that was gone, now, well, that hurt. And it meant she needed to come up with another brilliant plan to save them

Ramblings: When I was 5

Ramblings: When I was 5

TW: sexual abuse

Before I get into this, I just want to warn that this is a sensitive post, dealing with a sensitive topic. It is a truth I have lived with since I was 5 years old. The only one I blame for what happened is the boy involved, except for those times when I forget that it wasn’t really my fault. I don’t blame my parents, I don’t blame my brother or anyone else. But if you are sensitive to discussions around sexual assault, I would recommend you steer clear. I don’t go into details, but sometimes just touching on the topic can be enough to trigger the pain in some.

Here is my truth.

I was sexually assaulted when I was five years old. It wasn’t by an adult, so I’ve spent a long time even accepting that what happened to me was a sexual assault. We were both five, you see, and we were sort of neighbours who went to the same school. His family had clearly not sheltered him from the realities of being an adult, including sex, like mine had. I think I may have had some vague notion that sex existed, but I don’t think that I actually understood what it was. We were playing some innocuous child game, probably with trucks and tractors but I don’t remember.

What I do remember is him asking me if I wanted to play a new game, a secret game, an adult game. He said it was called sex. I had my misgivings, but he was insistent and I agreed. I can remember him telling me not to tell anyone, that it was our secret.

I think we wore our clothes at first, but eventually he had convinced me to remove them, and we were rolled up in a blanket on the couch playing our secret game. It happened more than once, but I don’t remember how many times it happened. I do remember how it ended.

We were wrapped in the blanket when my older brother burst into the room, calling out that it was time for dinner. I remember the shame I felt. I remember trying to hide in the blanket and the boy rolling me out so I tumbled to the floor and he stood triumphantly over me. I was his conquest.

I don’t think my parents knew how to react. I suspect that they pushed it aside as a kids playing doctor sort of thing. I knew it was wrong though. I remember my parents being quite upset. Not with me, at least I don’t remember it being with me, although they did quiz me on it and I remember feeling even more ashamed and guilty for agreeing to what this boy had suggested.

I remember becoming an outcast after that. This boy would chase all the other girls around the playground, shouting to them that if he caught them they had to have sex with him. I can remember sitting there, at 5/6 years old and thinking to myself ‘If they knew what it was like they wouldn’t be laughing so hard as they ran’. I remember still feeling guilty, still feeling ashamed, and I don’t think I knew what to do with those feelings.

Eventually, I pushed the incident aside. It wasn’t relevant to me as I went through elementary school. I imagine it was still in the back of my mind, though. I had a strong hatred for the boy, but I was lucky enough not to be in a class with him again until I reached Grade 6. I can remember him stealing a note off my desk to tattle on me to the teacher in front of the whole class.

As I hit high school and the kids around me matured and began to become more interested in having boyfriends/girlfriends, making out, and all that goes with that. It wasn’t until I was entering that phase myself that the incident from Grade 1 began to really affect me.

I spent a lot of time afraid, I spent a lot of time second-guessing my actions, my thoughts. Being intimate would leave me feeling guilty at times.

When I was hospitalized in Grade 12 for self-harm and depression, the story of Grade 1 came out again and it was clear that it was something that had greatly affected me and continued to do so. I remember my mom apologizing, saying she never realized how much it had hurt me.

And I forgive you, mom. You never knew because I never said, and I don’t know that I’ve ever fully understood how it affects me even to this day.

Sometimes I wonder who I would be, who that boy stole from world. I know I would be a different person. Would I be braver? Would I be able to connect with people better? Would I have this creativity that feeds off that deep pain?

I don’t know. I try not to think about it too much, because the woman I could have been died back in Grade 1, and I followed a different path.

It still hurts me to this day, so I don’t think about that time much. I actually don’t think about being a kid much. But I know it still affects me.

About a year ago, the boy contacted the law firm I work at. Now, I don’t know if the boy even remembers me, but I knew him as soon as I saw his name. And then I had to go and explain to the lawyer that he could not take this boy, now a man, on as a client. I didn’t say why, except that he had hurt me very much as a child. I cried. The boy was not taken on as a client, and I was never forced to speak to or see him.

I don’t want to ever see him, and I don’t want to ever speak with him. It terrifies me. I wonder if I somehow affected his life as much as he affected mine, and I know I didn’t. There is no way.

Maybe, though, maybe as he grew up he realized what he did was wrong and felt shame himself.

I won’t hold my breath, though.

I just hope that he hasn’t hurt many other women. I don’t pretend I was the only one he hurt like this.

Storytime: Lords and Serfs

Storytime: Lords and Serfs

The whispers were all around the main market square, in all the taverns, wafting out of the alleys and hidden corners. “The Torva are coming” they whispered, barely understanding who the Torva even were. They weren’t supposed to understand, they were merely serfs and even had they all the information at their fingertips, they still wouldn’t be able to grasp it.

Drakyn hated to remember how he had been one of them. It seemed like so long ago, not the mere weeks it had truly been. None of them could see the difference in him, his old friends and acquaintances treated him the same, but he had a difficult time pretending to be the serf he once was.

As he crossed the market square, his thoughts flew back to a few weeks ago, to when his eyes were finally opened.

He had been in the orchard, the one to the south of town, picking the harvest fruits for his master, when he stumbled across an old skeleton, hidden in the tangled brush on the edge of the orchard. Clutched in the skeleton’s bony grasp was a simple, though delicate chain, one that reminded Drakyn of the circlets that the Lords wore.

Curious, he had plucked the chain from the skeletons fingers and held it up to the light, enchanted by the gleam of the metal in the mid-day light. “I wonder what it feels like to wear one…” He thought to himself, hesitantly holding the chain above his head, wanting to wear it but terrified at the same time. After several long moments of indecision, Drakyn dropped the chain around his head, letting it settle along his brow.

It was like the chain had unlocked some sort of door in his mind, the one that let him reason, create and understand. Whatever change had begun it hadn’t stopped when he removed the chain. He hadn’t realized the change right away, of course, only that he began to feel restless in his work, work that had once satisfied him. He could see the injustice of the current system, the serfs oppressed and forced to work for the Lords and the serfs couldn’t even understand how they were oppressed.

He had never wondered about the chains before, never considered them to be anything more than decorative, a symbol of their position. Now he knew it was so much more – the chains were designed to break whatever seal was placed on the serfs at birth. He understood, now, why the serfs were required to either have their children in one of three mandated birthing halls, or bring their newly born child to the birthing halls as soon after an unexpected birth as possible. He remembered watching the midwives hum and haw over his baby sister, never realizing that their gentle touches held a far more sinister purpose.

Drakyn shook his head roughly, banishing the memories. He was on an errand for his master, and if he wanted to keep eating, he had to keep pretending nothing had changed. Which meant that he had to pretend he didn’t understand what the coming of the Torva could mean, that he had to act like it was just an interesting thing to waste his breath on.

He hated all the pretending. He hated the lying, he hated seeing his parents and sister move like sheep when he knew, knew in the very bottom of his soul, that they were really no different than the Lords, except for the circumstances of their birth and the limitations that the Lords forced upon them. Removing one’s ability to be creative, to think for themselves was reprehensible, Drakyn knew. He felt his hands beginning to shake with the anger he kept in check within him and he forced himself to relax, to let go of the anger, at least for the moment.

If the Torva were truly coming, that would be his chance. The Torva hated the Lords, though no one truly knew why. Drakyn suspected they might be people like him, those who had once been serfs but were released from that dullness in some way.

He would bide his time, Drakyn decided, and wait for the Torva. Then he would appeal to them, show that he hated the Lords as much as they did. And if they had a way to remove the bonds that held his parents and sister, he would beg them to remove those. As much as he hated the Lords, knowing what they did to the serfs, he hated the thought of his family being restricted when he might be able to free their minds.

When the Torva came, he would be ready for them.

Storytime: Farmer Jim

Storytime: Farmer Jim

These peaceful days on the farm

In the pre-light before dawn, silence reigned on the farm as everything slumbered. Everything, that is, except for the slowly waking farmer, Jim. He stretched under the covers before turning off the alarm before it could start beeping at him. Pullng back the covers to reveal a sleeping kitty, slightly annoyed at losing heat, Jim swung out of bed, slipping his feet into his slippers and swinging his housecoat around his shoulders.  “C’mon, Frankley, time to get up. Chickens won’t be feeding themselves.”

Frankley stretched and yawned, making a small noise in his throat before turning over and closing his eyes again. Jim chuckled, “Guess you don’t get any milk from the cow this morning. Shame.”

The cat’s ears twitched at the mention of milk, and as Jim walked to the kitchen he suddenly had a purring cat twining around his legs. “Frankley, you can be annoying” Jim commented as he put on the coffee and pulled on his overalls. Opening the front door to let the cat out first, Jim stepped out into the fresh morning, barely lit by the glow of a sun peeking over the horizon. He paused outside the house to grab a deep, metal pail and then walked down the well-worn path to his chicken coop. He paused on the way to fill the bucket with grains from the storeroom.

“Good morning, lovelies!” Jim crowed to the chickens as he entered the coop, “Have a good sleep?” He propped open the door and stepped back into the chicken yard, spreading the grains for the chickens to feed, and leaving a small pile in a low bin inside the coop, as well. Talking softly to the chickens, he gently removed the eggs they had laid, placing them carefully in a lined basket which he left hanging on the gate to pick up on his way back to the farmhouse.

“C’mon, Frankley, let’s go check on the cows.”  The cat jumped down from where it sat on the roof of the chicken coop, licking a paw without a care in the world. Jim and Frankley made their way to the cow barn, where Jim checked on each of the cows and gave them fresh fodder and water. “Hello, lovelies, did you have a good sleep?” The cows mooed in response, one of them nudging up against Jim’s arm for some scratches behind her ear. Jim obliged her, and she mooed contentedly, her eyes closing as she chewed her cud.

“You little suck up!” Jim laughed. Frankley wound himself around Jim and the cow’s legs, mewing pitifully. “Ah, yes. Ms. Daisy, I promised Frankley some milk. Would you be so kind?” Without waiting for a reply, Jim led Daisy over to the milking corner and quickly milked a half pail of milk from the cow, making sure to let more than a couple droplets fall to the ground for Frankley to lap up.

That chore done, Jim took one last look around the barn, making sure everything was where it belonged, before heading outside once more, where the sun had finally made a full appearance. In the brightening morning light, Jim gathered up the egg basket and headed over the work shed, where he left the milk and eggs to deal with later.

Finished with the work for a brief time, Jim went back into the farmhouse, filled with the scent of freshly made coffee, and poured himself a mug. With a contented sigh, Jim took his coffee out to the porch where he sat in the old rocking chair, looking out at his growing vegetables and enjoying the peaceful morning.